I really could relate to this story that Erwin McManus shares in his book The Barbarian Way.  You have to ask yourself if the the way you live out your faith is perhaps a bit too civilized…and not crazy enough:

I used to serve on the Board of Intercultural Studies at Biola University, mostly because a friend of mine asked me if I would.  But after a while I wondered why I said yes.  I almost never went.  I hate meetings.  I would much rather be outdoors than in a boardroom.  Usually I ask, "Do you want me in the morning, afternoon, or evening?"  I couldn’t get myself to commit to the whole day.

One afternoon I happened to be there when the counseling department enthusiastically presented a plan for serving missionary personnel around the world.  They were going to provide access to counseling and mental health to all those working overseas.  Even while I was listening, I knew I should remain silent.  I kept telling myself to keep my mouth shut: Don’t say anything; don’t cause any problems; don’t embarrass yourself.  But I just couldn’t help myself.  Before I knew it I was blurting out.  "Don’t do it.  Please don’t do it."

They all looked at me with the strangest expressions of confusion.

Well, it was too late for me to hide in obscurity, so I knew I needed to explain.  I went on, "Don’t go around the world and make our missionaries mentally healthy.  You’ll ruin everything.  You’ll totally mess up the cause.  I mean you have, let’s say, a husband and a wife from Kentucky and they have four kids and they believe God has called them to an obscure city in Central Asia.  Suddenly they find themselves in the middle of two million people who don’t speak a word of English, and they don’t speak a word of Mandarin or Cantonese or any form of tribal dialect.  And each morning they wake up excited and confident that somehow they’re going to bring that entire city to faith in Jesus Christ.  You go and make them normal, and they’ll be on a plane back home the next day."

The board member making the presentation graciously responded, "Erwin clearly has a different view of professional counseling than we do."

These people have got to be crazy to do what they’re doing and insane to believe that it’s possible.  One day they just got up and took the barbarian way out of civilization.

If you’re a follower of Christ and you have allowed yourself to be domesticated, you have lost the power of who you are and who God intends you to be.  You were not created to be normal.  God’s desire for you is not compliance and conformity.  You have been baptized by Spirit and fire.  Asleep within you is a barbarian, a savage to all who love the prim and proper.  You must go to the primal place and enter the presence of the Most High God, for there you will be changed by His presence.  Let Him unleash the untamed faith within you.